I have to say I was physically drained today. The last number of months have been such a huge learning curve. I was very indifferent when I began learning to do the lion dance. I didn't discuss this with anyone because we were a team and I was needed to do my part. I am not sure where my indifference came from. I have seen lion dances a number of times since I began learning Kung Fu: every time I was impressed by the skill and the effort that went into the dance.
There was a point in the training that I realized I was going to be in the lion dance for Chinese New Years. First there was panic. I shouldn't be doing this I don't have the skill set. My thinking was this should be for people more senior than me who had much more training.
That thought then left my head and I focused on not letting my team mates down. Many times during the practices I felt I was doing a terrible job. I was not at the level I needed to be. I had to get my skill level up to theirs and ensure that I wouldn't disappoint my team with my performance.
I hope I accomplished this for my team mates.
Where am I now. In a short period of time I went from not wanting to do the Lion dance to wanting to continue to Lion dance and to learn more about this part of Kung Fu. I have watched 5 or 6 Lion dances online today and I have been very impressed at how some dancers can really show personality in a Lion. That is where I want to go and what I want to do.
Opportunity is not always there but when it is take it.