There are times when life seems so complicated and difficult and you wonder how you’re going to be able to juggle everything and do all the things that need doing. Then there are other times when life seems to just slow down and everything seems so simple.
During the tough times, it’s hard to keep things in perspective. Everything is to the extreme. I don’t know how many times in the past few months I’ve done nothing because I couldn’t do everything. Doing nothing starts a pattern of inaction and it gets easier to continue doing nothing. And there are always reasons to stay on this path. Health problems, working out of town, time management problems; these are all reasons that may be perfectly valid, but, I think it’s important to recognize that no matter what happens, you always have a choice. I know there are times where I’ve felt sorry for myself when I had health issues and I ended up moping around and generally being unproductive. This was a choice.
I feel like I’m in a much better place, mentally and physically, than I have been in a while. This is partially due to external factors, such as summer finally arriving, my health returning, etc. But the most important factor was just me deciding that I needed to get back to doing the things I was doing before. I may not be able to do everything, but something is always better than nothing.
When I wrote this journal entry I specifically didn’t make any mention of Kung Fu. The reason is that I think this shows that engagement and attitude apply to all facets of life. I could have just as easily been writing about work or life in general but everything that I have written would still apply. I feel like the catalyst for my change was our Sheep Team meeting on the 9th. There’s a lesson that Sifu Brinker is always trying to impart, and that’s to just show up and good things will happen. I believe this to be true, even if I forget sometimes.